This title came to me while discussing cleansing with a sis-in-Christ. While I was chatting with her the Holy Spirit gave me an answer but not only to a question that she had but a question I’d been asking for almost a week.
You see God has been really heart checking me about a lot, I personally don’t like dry seasons. Yes it’s a growth period but growing pains hurt. So within this time of growing I was stripped of some of my favorite shows no not Scandal or Empire, I personally don’t get those shows. I was also stripped of reliability on self, where I try to fix it myself but God is trying to get me to rely on Him completely! So I was reading through and it was like a scripture was highlighted in my heart as I read.
In Timothy 4:12-16,
Paul is telling Timothy a few things about how he should handle himself, the ministry that God has given him, and the people placed in his path. What stuck out to me was when Paul told Timothy to ‘give himself entirely over to them‘. I said Lord show me how to give myself entirely over to your path, like I need to be, nothing holding me back. Hey! Jesus said whatever you ask in my name it shall be given unto you.’So I asked, you see Psalm 91:12 says ‘Teach me to number my days, so that I may gain a heart of wisdom‘ I am tired of wasting time. I have been sleep, chasing the tailcoats of a world that will not turn and chase me. When I should be like the woman with the issue of blood, pressing toward Him just trying to touch the hem of His garment.
Surrendering is truly a daily washing, a ritual we must run too! I don’t always run to surrendering, sometimes I go kicking and screaming truly fighting my fleshly desires, I could be seen walking slowly because I don’t have the energy to go through another cleansing. The example I used with my sis, was a dirt covered child that thinks its okay to be dirty and will have you chasing him while he runs to and fro stark naked across the yard. If the child is like my son who hates to be dirty passed play time, that child will run to you because he knows the importance of being clean and will surrender to your arms and the water waiting in the bath.
Do I surrender all? Maybe I haven’t taken full on notice what I need to surrender to the Lord but I know the Holy Spirit will knock on that door in my head and heart soon. It will be in that moment that I have to choose to surrender or push back. ‘Obedience is better than sacrifice‘ is usually the first scripture I hear in my head or ‘pride comes before the fall‘. Then an image of Satan being thrown from heaven follows. Then I’m like okay, I remember and I surrender but I have to continue to surrender until it becomes natural not to want that thing, idea, habit, or whatever it is anymore! God will strengthen you, He is a Good Father or El Emunah (The Faithful God). He will never leave you or forsake you and His love makes that surrender so much easier!
Lord I surrender all! I surrender my will, way and thoughts but replace them Lord with yours. Days I don’t feel like reading my Bible I force myself to at least to read a few scriptures. I have a song that I listen to by Hillsong called ‘Love is War‘, that I play, I blast it. I sing with it, I praise with it because surrendering is cleansing me from the inside out, it’s letting God have his way in my life, giving my original purpose room to spread wings.