Twas the Night Before….

I am so excited to celebrate the birth of my Saviour, my King! I am excited because without Him being born I, there would be no celebration of His death! And again His resurrection and He will forever! I am so in love with Jesus, but you know what He is much more in love with me. John 3:16 ‘God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten son! God loves me, Jesus volunteered to lay down His life for me. I’m glad Mary accepted the assignment and Joseph chose to protect the assignment! I cannot imagine what it was like even as a mom because Jesus was and is the Son of God. So I am grateful for His sacrifice! I am thankful for my Lord and Saviour!!! Merry Christmas everyone!! Jesus is the reason we celebrate and the gift you and I could give Him is humbling ourselves before Him. Happy Birthday Jesus!!

Poetry Flow: Maybe I’m Tripping

Twisted minds in these twisted times
Everybody want to be God but don’t want to love their neighbor. They wouldn’t send a Saviour for the color of the skin is different. I maybe tripping but I’m not black enough to speak for black people because they say I love whites, reds and yellow people. I like to see the differences. I like to see the porcelain skin with the fire red hair, as well as the dark skin with hair tips that reach for the air.  But still I maybe tripping. Even though as I read my Bible, I see whole truth, no color but culture. I see what I see today people of ignorance saying the people that follow Jesus are ignorant, just because our Spirit is renewed to a God that loves us beyond our thinking. But I maybe just tripping, not awaken to death that lies within all the deceit teaching hate and incomplete because I don’t know, I maybe just tripping.

Miriam

Poetry Flows: Cherish You

Maybe just maybe we have to many boys trying to be men, too many girls trying to take the stance of a woman.

I’m not saying don’t grown up to be a man
But explore the world not the girl, so you can have a deeper conversation, more than just Jordans and hating. Less baby making and more mind chasing. More men who stand up for God and don’t mind submitting to His Son, who can usher us into our destinies.

Maybe our girls are to focused on the body and not the skills to pay the billls. Less fleek and more geek, play with the barbies and be unique. Carry your pigtails for a few more years, lessen the tears from you and a child. Find the Love of the Man that made you, your mom and your dad.

So grow up a little slower, go see the world, keep God first, let His Word develop your soul, let His Spirit pure, whole and in control, mold you and make you.

Because we need you to be men and women not after the surface but after your purpose, love.

Miriam

Right Place, Right Time

As my last post stated I was going to my last two best friends graduation. While at gathering there, one of my friends mother is like my mother. We have known each other even before her daughter and I became really close. She talks to me all the time, she asks what I am doing and what I plan on doing. Well this time it was really different, it struck a chord deep down within. She talked to me twice by the way before graduation started. I told her I had not been able to make it to the others graduation due to work and I was excited to finally be able to make it to one. She said we are waiting to celebrate yours; it’s about time. Go for what you always wanted to do when you were a little girl, even if it makes no sense to anyone else.

That moment I wanted to cry because no one, absolutely no one had ever said that to me that knew me. I hear the inspiration all the time but it never clicked until she said it. Then it was like a flood of my hopes and dreams just came forefront. Truthfully, I had never planned on going to college until I had my son. I was that student that felt after AP classes and preparing for college since 8th grade, I was super tired of school. I can say my son was my inspiration to actually peek into that door. I went for all the wrong reasons to go into a career I did not like at all, I love helping people just not during draining and overbearing entry work for nursing school. I soon dropped out wanting to take a breather from all things school.  I’ve been floating ever since between what I think I want to do and what I am actually going to do.

Well during the graduation, the guest speaker was James Patterson, one of the greatest and best-selling authors of like forever! I have never read a single book but I have seen the movies made from those books and thoroughly enjoyed them. My excitement heightened and he was quite the character himself. This was like confirmation as I had been praying Lord what in the world am I going to go back to college for. I can’t remember every word he spoke, but ‘Be comfortable with being uncomfortable.’ Did stick with me and ‘Enjoy what you write and what you do, because if you don’t, no one else will.’ I was there to celebrate with my friends and got confirmation at the same time. God works in the funniest of ways.

I won’t cry now, leaving the family today, my friend’s mother pulled me over to the side and said, ‘Miriam, you’ve pushed each and everyone of your friends through college, supporting with encouragement, praying with them and for them, and making sure they all hit that end mark, they will do the exact same for you. You have to leave the nest at some point, your time is here.’

I got more inspiration from their graduation weekend to go back to school then I have my whole entire life. (Lol). So I put down all the things I would go to school for and reach for the goal of my childhood dreams. Now it’s time to pick a college, hmmmmm….

Love yall, can’t wait to post my Christmas special! Have a wonderful night!

 

Miriam

 

Pouring Out

This Saturday marks a very special day for me. I’m the mama hen in the group, the last of my very close friends (sisters) are graduating. It has been 5 of us since 9th grade, and one for almost 20 years! I have heard my friends cry, struggle, break ups, call me at 3am, drag them out of parties (wild days), drive distances to get them, comfort and support them. I’m not a perfect friend and sometimes I have a sharp tongue not so much now but I always put it straight. My dear friend of 18 years is leaving next month for the Navy, she is also my confidential, my peace and my administrator of Word Led Life, she called me yesterday saying she surpassed some state highest scores for her military language test for the job she is going in for. Instead of April, they pushed her date to January. I am more than excited for her, I am overflowing with sooooooo much joy. She has seen me through, talked with me and she is the iron that sharpens this iron. We can have a bible study out of a simple hey! My other darlings are so close to my heart, I pray for them as well, we have fallen out and come back together. I’ve lessened my momma hen attitude, they’ve all have made it across the stage! (Officially Saturday) I could not be happier, I am a mother but this moment is something big for me. I love my friends with all my heart, I always want to see them do well and succeed, physically, spiritually, emotionally, financially every single level. It’s a lot of tears, prayers and fights, and calming convo’s. I can only imagine how Jesus cares for us because even writing this I’m crying. Jesus wants us to succeed on every level, He put us here to succeed, carry out the mission he placed in your life to the girls of The Rush Council- mama hen is out and it’s time for you to fly. I couldn’t be happier about this weekend. God Bless!

pixlr_20151217231931609.jpgToo gain friends you must show yourself friendly- King Solomon

 

Vital Organs

This post has been sitting in my phone for a few days and guess what I go to church and Pastor takes most of it, out of well, what I am going to post. Also last week we had convocation celebrating 30 years, can you say YAY! and really all the messages tied up to some major confirmation from my personal studies. I needed to be close to an internet source because I just knew I could not do this one on my phone. Just bear with me because it is important that you know the deets!

So yeah, I was at church two Sundays ago now and during praise and worship, God spoke to my heart and very plain. I was in praise and worship, eyes closed and I saw like a secret door open and a man was telling me to follow him. Then I had a dream a few days later and it was a hyena sniffing around trying to find something to eat and I felt a hand on my shoulder say it’s okay, he can’t find you, you are hidden.

(On the 5th)

I go outside and pray (it was crisp and cold omg) In the Spirit I heard, ‘I’ve been hiding you, just like a child is hidden in the womb, until it can survive in the atmosphere it has to go in.”

All November I felt stuck, out of sorts and I thought maybe I wasn’t praying enough, praising enough, I must be doing something wrong, why do I feel like this. It seems God is silent, I was getting anxious instead of resting. All the sermons that I heard and the reading and studying I had done,  kept my mind sane. Did I make right ways of thinking all the time, No! I cried but in the middle of crying, I’d be like, why am I crying, God is too good. I can’t settle for doubt, unbelief, or any type of negativity to be in my mind or heart. The victory is mine! It was like a reel that would play over and over.

Thank God I did take some former health classes or I would not have understood what he was saying. Throughout pregnancy, we are developed, our bodies to each and every single organ in each month something is getting  stronger. Babies can hear what’s on the outside at a certain stage but still aren’t able to live on the outside because of lack oxygen, brain growth, digestive systems, or whatever it may be. Do not become discouraged during these times, you are being hidden, growing stronger, so you can live on that next level that God is preparing you for. It is vital for your survival! Maybe your confidence isn’t high, maybe you can’t communicate well, He may be placing you in small situations to develop you. So when you are birth into your due time, you can most certainly thrive!!

Psalm 139:13 NKJV For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.

 

 

 

Please Stop. Let it Go.

I just could not help myself, it’s cold outside as well! Why not bring Frozen into this (lol)… Anyway that’s not what this post is about.

Earlier this morning I was reading about God telling Samuel to go anoint the next king of Israel (For a personal study project). Then a scripture and this blog post was born for some morning encouragement, night, or evening…wherever and whenever you may read this.

1 Samuel 16: 1 Now the Lord said to Samuel, “How long will you mourn for Saul, seeing I have rejected him from reigning over Israel? Fill your horn with oil, and go; I am sending you to Jesse the Bethlehemite. For I have provided Myself a king among his sons.”

Today you may be mourning over a relationship asking why didn’t it work out, did you do something wrong, or why didn’t you see it coming?  Maybe it is a wayward child that you have done everything for including raise right? Maybe it’s your past life that keeps popping up. Whatever it is, just stop right there. God has brought you a mighty long way and just because you don’t see behind the scenes does not mean you just wallow in your pity. Get up and go out to do what God is sending you too! Just because something you did before, failed does not mean the next thing will and it does not stop God from receiving the glory. Maybe s/he was the one and then s/he were having their own troubling relationship with God. Then again maybe God was saving you from a headache or 3. (Been there done that). Maybe it is a child, maybe its that record, that unsteady job history, whatever you think is keeping you from going forward. LET IT GO!

God has other things for you to do and it’s not to sit and mope all day over something that was in yesterday. Samuel anointed Saul, it was Saul’s disobedience that got his crown snatched. Samuel also anointed David which we have gotten one of the intimate books from: Psalms and his throne is everlasting, some grandsons down the line came our Savior! So come on get up and get too doing what God is asking you, you can leave a God-lead legacy!! Have a wonderful day and let it go and go towards your destiny!

 

 

Be Creative

Gifts and Talents are to be utilized, not  hidden or buried. -from me.

Out of odds I have been trying to not be frustrated while looking for a better paying job, trying to pack, and get my son’s schooling attended too, and trying to balance personal studies and prayer life all back in the order they were before just three weeks ago. My mind has been wondering, not purposely but it does. Then I remembered what the Lord told me when I first start writing this blog: write anything and I will give what to say. So with life trying to slap me, my writing has actually been up. Only today I had a break down and I blame that on my impatient ways, that the Lord is ripping away at warp speed. Sometimes I get writers block, lately it has been life block, I’ve always been able to work and always climb with the income later but now it seems after actual injury, comes the insult. No one is hiring, returning calls or working with schedules, I am thankful for the part time I have now but in order to move out my parents house, pay for some plans, and go where I need to go, I need something steady. Praying and filling out applications, so today I cried, I felt like a failing parent, a failing Christian, a failure. I was frustrated because I thought I was moving in a direction I needed to go. Then after not knowing how exactly to pray, I begin to take in God. A peace so calming I actually got an idea to write out better experiences for my life. What do I mean? I mean when I have run out of room tears, prayers and my soul seems distraught, God gets my attention through my abilities. I grabbed my laptop and started to write a story, something to get those feelings of despair out. Creative writing is something we are taught in school. So in a story that is fictional, I wrote my dreams of doing interviews, having a successful God encouraging blog and vlog, with a character I am hoping to become like as my life is being transformed by Christ. I always believed Jesus was placed as a Carpenter’s son because God is the carpenter of our lives, building us up strong and sturdy, unique with His personal touch. He saw what He put His hands too was good and built to last. So get creative, if you are a blogger, writer like I am write that better future you want to see, God will be sure to guide your pen to see hope. If you paint, draw, build, sing, dance, drive, play a sport, etc., do it all unto the glory of God. Creativity leads to productivity, then leads to activity for your heart, mind and dreams. Don’t let that mind of yours be the devils playground, get on the swing and image you flying high into those buried dreams. Be creative you beautiful God-made Creation!