This post has been sitting in my phone for a few days and guess what I go to church and Pastor takes most of it, out of well, what I am going to post. Also last week we had convocation celebrating 30 years, can you say YAY! and really all the messages tied up to some major confirmation from my personal studies. I needed to be close to an internet source because I just knew I could not do this one on my phone. Just bear with me because it is important that you know the deets!
So yeah, I was at church two Sundays ago now and during praise and worship, God spoke to my heart and very plain. I was in praise and worship, eyes closed and I saw like a secret door open and a man was telling me to follow him. Then I had a dream a few days later and it was a hyena sniffing around trying to find something to eat and I felt a hand on my shoulder say it’s okay, he can’t find you, you are hidden.
(On the 5th)
I go outside and pray (it was crisp and cold omg) In the Spirit I heard, ‘I’ve been hiding you, just like a child is hidden in the womb, until it can survive in the atmosphere it has to go in.”
All November I felt stuck, out of sorts and I thought maybe I wasn’t praying enough, praising enough, I must be doing something wrong, why do I feel like this. It seems God is silent, I was getting anxious instead of resting. All the sermons that I heard and the reading and studying I had done, kept my mind sane. Did I make right ways of thinking all the time, No! I cried but in the middle of crying, I’d be like, why am I crying, God is too good. I can’t settle for doubt, unbelief, or any type of negativity to be in my mind or heart. The victory is mine! It was like a reel that would play over and over.
Thank God I did take some former health classes or I would not have understood what he was saying. Throughout pregnancy, we are developed, our bodies to each and every single organ in each month something is getting stronger. Babies can hear what’s on the outside at a certain stage but still aren’t able to live on the outside because of lack oxygen, brain growth, digestive systems, or whatever it may be. Do not become discouraged during these times, you are being hidden, growing stronger, so you can live on that next level that God is preparing you for. It is vital for your survival! Maybe your confidence isn’t high, maybe you can’t communicate well, He may be placing you in small situations to develop you. So when you are birth into your due time, you can most certainly thrive!!
Psalm 139:13 NKJV For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.