God Hears You Just Fine, but are you listening.

I of course am up because I took a nap earlier today and yeah that was not on purpose. I’m cleaning and as I clean I think about everything. The last few months God has been dealing with me tough, training me, teaching me. With teaching I had to realize why I have two ears and one mouth.

I like alone time, I love and probably try to indulge in. I’m a mom, so if that means locking myself up in the bathroom just to get a little peace, I’ll do it. Lol.

With this alone time, as long as I can remember I’ve read countless words through many pages of many books. I’m a bookworm. As I have come to understand knowing God, my books pretain more useful knowledge. God’s Word along with being on fire with the Holy Spirit has started a flame a hunger and thirst for Him. An attentive ear has been turned to hear what the Holy Spirit is saying. Before I came to my church now I was not well hearsed on the things of the spirit, I knew angels and demons and about the works of the Holy Spirit but not in detail that I know now. I have recieved somewhat of a plathora of revelation from the Holy Spirit including knowing God’s voice.

Jesus is talking about John the baptist and in verse Matt 11:14 says ‘and if you are willing to recieve it, he who has ears to hear, let him hear!’ If you are willing to hear the truth of God by the Holy Spirit you will hear. Jesus in John 10:27, says ‘ My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.’
We can hear God clearly when we walk in obedience to His Word and Will. We belong to Him, He knows us by our fruit.

How do you know if you are hearing from God?

The voice never contradicts the Word of God. God is not telling you that someone else’s husband/wife is your husband/wife. He will not lead you astray, nor to commit a sin of any kind. That the flesh and or Satan.

The voice of God is gentle and stern, it is not harsh. I have heard my name called gently but sternly and it was to get my attention, to protect me.

His ways and will are higher than ours and He knows the plans He has for us. The more we yeild to the Word. Most of the times before I start my personal bible study or even get to church. I plead the blood over my mind, ears, my mouth and that I be enlightened by the Holy Spirit to God’s truth and I ask God what do I need to learn for that moment. I sit still, I sort out or get on the same frequency by praise and worship and focusing on Him. Meditating on His Goodness.

When yeilding becomes apart of that personal time with God and we shut up and listen. Then you and I can hear His voice in surety. He will direct and correct your path, we just have to be willing to get into that quiet time and be quiet. Lol. This has been most fulfilling in my relationship with Him, that’s a part of the intimacy. Listening.

Deceitful Riches

For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Mark 8:36

This is a topic that bothers me the most, not because of prosperity being taught but because of those who bash those who do teach prosperity.

I do not have a problem with preachers who teach it because I myself believe that prosperity is necessary, if you are not prospering you are dying; broke, mental or sick.

No one listens to a poor man. (Eccle 9:16)
Why do our children listen to rappers and worldly people more than the preacher and the teacher?

Because they see the flashy things and people getting whatever, eating whatever, riding in whatever, living and traveling wherever they want.
Then ‘church folks’ say something if a Pastor is teaching the word, preaching the word, carrying out missions, feeding and educating people, spreading the gospel to the four corners of the earth and say ‘that’s the devil.’ Satan is looking like ‘why would I increase someone who is teaching the people to defeat me.’ Come on church folk, wake up, now you are being decieved of what the riches are about.

Riches are to expand the kingdom. Contrary to believe Jesus was not broke in no sense of the word, He was so wealthy that ‘He knew and let a theif stay over the treasury’. You can be so caught up on spreading the truth of God and into the assignment on your life that the money is flowing and circulating to carry out what is suppose to, when money comes up missing you don’t notice.

But this religious mindset says the church is suppose to be poor, but how? Excuse me but my eloquency gets dropped when I’m getting to the real deal holy field.
How are God’s children going to carry out the gospel, half of the church not walking in enough faith to break five loaves of bread and some fish patties to feed 5,000 men not including women and children. We (as in religious people) are having a hard time having enough faith to pay our own bills, put food on the table, and pay off a building to have church in.

I can only find one thing wrong with the bashers, you are sleeping on God. Plain and simple, Adam and Eve were prosperous wanting for nothing, Abraham just wanted a child with his wife and became prosperous in that area as well. Children of Israel left Egypt wealthy ‘they made a golden calf’; ‘perverse’.

So let me ask you this, are you making your blessings into a golden calf?? Are your children, husband, your own life, your job, your friends, even you ministry come before God, is that your golden calf?

Maybe we have a problem with someone teaching on money because we have mismanaged ours so much, we are haters and haven’t sat at God’s feet for us to hear how to make those inventions, where to go to make a deal, who to see because 1. we think we can do it on our own, when God did not intend for us to live without Him (prideful). Pride comes before the fall.

Riches are to be used to expand the kingdom, not hoard nor used to look down on others as if you are better.

1 Tim 6:9 those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare
Vs10 says for the LOVE of money is a root of ALL KINDS of evil.

Let’s list some:
Prostitution
Drug Dealing
Bad Deals
Pornography
Lying
Cheating
Stealing
Killing
Etc….

People do all that and some more for money! If we put money in it’s proper place we will clear all those deceitful and perverse and evil things under our foot and our hearts and minds won’t focus on the money. People do all those things because they feel as if they lack something.

Matt 6:33 seek first the kingdom, “God and His way of doing things” and everything for your destiny and purpose on this earth will come your way.

God gives the wisdom to increase. Satan does not want the saints to increase, why would he, he wants you to stay stuck where you are, broke, disgusted and busted then you can never go out and reach the souls that need to be brought in.

Don’t be decieved Saints! Increase is of God.

1 John 1:2 Beloved I pray that you may prosper in ALL things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.

The Insanity of Me

Insanity- doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. -A. Einstein

I’m up late when I need to be sleep but as I was laying here this thought popped up in my head ‘The insanity of me.’ Then I started seeing the revelation. I need to be in bed at 10, I honestly work better if I do.
I need to eat a better less carb diet, I need to manage life better period. This is something that I have constantly struggled with my whole life management of time.
I believe in Pslam 90:12 it says ‘Lord teach us to number our days.’
This something he has told me and I just need to put in action.

If I keep living life in the same pattern no matter if the days go by, I will still end up with the same answers and then the same problems.

This is why God reaches for us, this is why He gave up His only begotten son, He knew that we would be certainly doing things in our mind set, strength and by our wisdom.

I am learning this; that I have to die to those old habits, attitude, and demeanor, rid myself insanity as I dive into the healing, power, glory and love of God.

God is faithful and just to take us from the rat race of our own devices and destruction but we have to be willing to let go of the insanities we keep flooding our lives with.

The insanity of me is that I keep trying to do it my way and the ways of what I think is right leads to death.

Lord save me from the insanity of myself….

For the love of Christ compels us, because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died; and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.
II Corinthians 5:14-15 NKJV

Truth is…

I was thinking about character lately, my character to be exact, how I respond to people, problems, and things in and out of my control. For the most part, I thought in some sorts I was doing pretty well. My thinking is probably the one I should not be judging my character by. I was recently on Facebook and scrolled and read a short article that someone posted from a book. A lady was saying that she asked her daughter to put the name of the boy she liked in the 1 Corinthians 13 4:4-8, Love is patient, Love is kind…etc. Then she asked her to put her own name in that place… and so on. So I took time last night and put my name in the place of love and guess what I was totally convicted. I’m not the most patient person and sometimes I guess I can be unkind and going through the others I was like I probably have like 3 that didn’t convict me! What?! I think I am the nicest most kind, caring, lovable person ever but the Word of God and inner working of the Holy Spirit says other wise.

II Timothy 3:16  All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work. 

Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow and is a discerner of thoughts and intents of the heart. 

I ask God to turn up the heat and burn through until I can be used by Him. God sees past the facet of faces you and I put on for people and breaks us down. Well I know He breaks me down because I asked for it. I asked Him to show me the cracks in my armor, so I can be battlefield ready. Leviticus 19:2, God tells Moses to tell the children of Israel that they should live holy, for He God is holy. Peter repeats it in 1 Peter 1:15, saying as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct.

These are scriptures I have read since I was a child and just now seeing the very revealing truth and character flaw of my own self. Truth is I need Jesus, I need His Correction, direction, and I need Him to come after me as the one sheep out of the ninety-nine. I need the word to discern my thoughts and the intents of my heart, to show me all my flawed aspects so I can be stable by His strength alone and never turn back. I am sure that it may take a hose down, a throw in the soapy water but I know His direction is sure and full of life.  Truth is being broken down to be built back up in His righteousness is what I am after. Knowing God, and being a reflection of Him is such a conviction in my spirit, I can’t explain it any other way. To be like the Father, time has to be spent and following footsteps have to be made.

So I leave you with this, ask the Lord to baptise you with the Holy Spirit and with fire. Holding nothing back, take the correction and go forward in the Word. Obedience is better than sacrifice any day. I have been stubborn for too long and I will not be the bull this time, I’ll be the sheep lead by the Voice that calls out and I know for sure it is His Truth!

Miriam

Poetry Flows: Cherish You

Maybe just maybe we have to many boys trying to be men, too many girls trying to take the stance of a woman.

I’m not saying don’t grown up to be a man
But explore the world not the girl, so you can have a deeper conversation, more than just Jordans and hating. Less baby making and more mind chasing. More men who stand up for God and don’t mind submitting to His Son, who can usher us into our destinies.

Maybe our girls are to focused on the body and not the skills to pay the billls. Less fleek and more geek, play with the barbies and be unique. Carry your pigtails for a few more years, lessen the tears from you and a child. Find the Love of the Man that made you, your mom and your dad.

So grow up a little slower, go see the world, keep God first, let His Word develop your soul, let His Spirit pure, whole and in control, mold you and make you.

Because we need you to be men and women not after the surface but after your purpose, love.

Miriam

Right Place, Right Time

As my last post stated I was going to my last two best friends graduation. While at gathering there, one of my friends mother is like my mother. We have known each other even before her daughter and I became really close. She talks to me all the time, she asks what I am doing and what I plan on doing. Well this time it was really different, it struck a chord deep down within. She talked to me twice by the way before graduation started. I told her I had not been able to make it to the others graduation due to work and I was excited to finally be able to make it to one. She said we are waiting to celebrate yours; it’s about time. Go for what you always wanted to do when you were a little girl, even if it makes no sense to anyone else.

That moment I wanted to cry because no one, absolutely no one had ever said that to me that knew me. I hear the inspiration all the time but it never clicked until she said it. Then it was like a flood of my hopes and dreams just came forefront. Truthfully, I had never planned on going to college until I had my son. I was that student that felt after AP classes and preparing for college since 8th grade, I was super tired of school. I can say my son was my inspiration to actually peek into that door. I went for all the wrong reasons to go into a career I did not like at all, I love helping people just not during draining and overbearing entry work for nursing school. I soon dropped out wanting to take a breather from all things school.  I’ve been floating ever since between what I think I want to do and what I am actually going to do.

Well during the graduation, the guest speaker was James Patterson, one of the greatest and best-selling authors of like forever! I have never read a single book but I have seen the movies made from those books and thoroughly enjoyed them. My excitement heightened and he was quite the character himself. This was like confirmation as I had been praying Lord what in the world am I going to go back to college for. I can’t remember every word he spoke, but ‘Be comfortable with being uncomfortable.’ Did stick with me and ‘Enjoy what you write and what you do, because if you don’t, no one else will.’ I was there to celebrate with my friends and got confirmation at the same time. God works in the funniest of ways.

I won’t cry now, leaving the family today, my friend’s mother pulled me over to the side and said, ‘Miriam, you’ve pushed each and everyone of your friends through college, supporting with encouragement, praying with them and for them, and making sure they all hit that end mark, they will do the exact same for you. You have to leave the nest at some point, your time is here.’

I got more inspiration from their graduation weekend to go back to school then I have my whole entire life. (Lol). So I put down all the things I would go to school for and reach for the goal of my childhood dreams. Now it’s time to pick a college, hmmmmm….

Love yall, can’t wait to post my Christmas special! Have a wonderful night!

 

Miriam

 

Pouring Out

This Saturday marks a very special day for me. I’m the mama hen in the group, the last of my very close friends (sisters) are graduating. It has been 5 of us since 9th grade, and one for almost 20 years! I have heard my friends cry, struggle, break ups, call me at 3am, drag them out of parties (wild days), drive distances to get them, comfort and support them. I’m not a perfect friend and sometimes I have a sharp tongue not so much now but I always put it straight. My dear friend of 18 years is leaving next month for the Navy, she is also my confidential, my peace and my administrator of Word Led Life, she called me yesterday saying she surpassed some state highest scores for her military language test for the job she is going in for. Instead of April, they pushed her date to January. I am more than excited for her, I am overflowing with sooooooo much joy. She has seen me through, talked with me and she is the iron that sharpens this iron. We can have a bible study out of a simple hey! My other darlings are so close to my heart, I pray for them as well, we have fallen out and come back together. I’ve lessened my momma hen attitude, they’ve all have made it across the stage! (Officially Saturday) I could not be happier, I am a mother but this moment is something big for me. I love my friends with all my heart, I always want to see them do well and succeed, physically, spiritually, emotionally, financially every single level. It’s a lot of tears, prayers and fights, and calming convo’s. I can only imagine how Jesus cares for us because even writing this I’m crying. Jesus wants us to succeed on every level, He put us here to succeed, carry out the mission he placed in your life to the girls of The Rush Council- mama hen is out and it’s time for you to fly. I couldn’t be happier about this weekend. God Bless!

pixlr_20151217231931609.jpgToo gain friends you must show yourself friendly- King Solomon

 

Please Stop. Let it Go.

I just could not help myself, it’s cold outside as well! Why not bring Frozen into this (lol)… Anyway that’s not what this post is about.

Earlier this morning I was reading about God telling Samuel to go anoint the next king of Israel (For a personal study project). Then a scripture and this blog post was born for some morning encouragement, night, or evening…wherever and whenever you may read this.

1 Samuel 16: 1 Now the Lord said to Samuel, “How long will you mourn for Saul, seeing I have rejected him from reigning over Israel? Fill your horn with oil, and go; I am sending you to Jesse the Bethlehemite. For I have provided Myself a king among his sons.”

Today you may be mourning over a relationship asking why didn’t it work out, did you do something wrong, or why didn’t you see it coming?  Maybe it is a wayward child that you have done everything for including raise right? Maybe it’s your past life that keeps popping up. Whatever it is, just stop right there. God has brought you a mighty long way and just because you don’t see behind the scenes does not mean you just wallow in your pity. Get up and go out to do what God is sending you too! Just because something you did before, failed does not mean the next thing will and it does not stop God from receiving the glory. Maybe s/he was the one and then s/he were having their own troubling relationship with God. Then again maybe God was saving you from a headache or 3. (Been there done that). Maybe it is a child, maybe its that record, that unsteady job history, whatever you think is keeping you from going forward. LET IT GO!

God has other things for you to do and it’s not to sit and mope all day over something that was in yesterday. Samuel anointed Saul, it was Saul’s disobedience that got his crown snatched. Samuel also anointed David which we have gotten one of the intimate books from: Psalms and his throne is everlasting, some grandsons down the line came our Savior! So come on get up and get too doing what God is asking you, you can leave a God-lead legacy!! Have a wonderful day and let it go and go towards your destiny!

 

 

Be Patient

Another from my cellular device, also another in the wee hours of the morning. I have slept the day away because of being chilled, coughing, and a sore throat. But I will be better soon in Jesus name!

I have been inpatient, Wednesday was the official end date I was to not work for three months. Yes I actually kept up because I get antsy not working. Because I like being able to say I have an income and I need to save for school and house. Big plans, yes but I had to slow down because as I plowed my way into filling out applications everybody seemed to be saying no. What?! It has never been this hard for me to find a job. Banks, Hotels, Retail, all no! I almost had a break down, a complete break down, all these thoughts start popping up and I have an opportunity to move out with a great rent price just waiting on me and I can’t even get a job. So I start to panic, get frustrated, and lose my peace. Thank you Holy Spirit! ‘Let patience have it’s perfect work.’ ‘Trust Me’ ‘Doing it my way instead of your own will always be better.’ Yes Lord you are right as always. It’s the weekend and I am itching to get back to work, I have things to pay for, a child to clothe, feed, support. Not only that soon bills of my own, to tie with car note, phone, lights, gas etc. Tell me I thought growing up was easy at 12. I could go back to hustling and have what I needed with a few phone calls or I could stay in line with the Father who supplies all my needs and wait. I did the applying, the calling, the work, the house searching, but now its time to wait and see what the Lord has in store. You may be waiting for Boaz, Ruth, promotion, clarity, a door to open, whatever you have been praying for. Just wait on the Lord. Last night in my dream, the Lord showed a root being ripped out of me, the root of self reliance. I can do nothing without Him, I cannot breath without the thought of Him. I refuse to go back to the old me, I rather put down the calls, avoid the conversations, leave the ties cut and wait on the Lord. He has it worked out and the manifestion is coming forward.
Be patient, beacuse patience has it’s perfect work.

“I Will Clothe You”

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“So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin;  and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.  Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
Matthew 6:28-30 NKJV

Bare with me as our internet for the desktop is getting settled. I have only done probably two posts from a phone.

So this is more of a testimony, that trully fits the scripture above. I just started working again from a very well paying job that I held up in for a few months and I just felt like God was pulling at my heart to leave especially after my accident in March. My brother offered me a job as a firewatch out in the western plains of Oklahoma. Did that go well, no. It actually stressed me out so much I stayed sick, swollen, and frustrated the whole time. Walking in total disarray trying to make more money to pay bills, take care of my son during the summer and for the school year. Having some time off (I may have mentioned some of this before) leaving that short term job, the money I had in my account went to a new phone (I hope they didn’t call for me to come to Texas), my car that was running hot to point I couldn’t drive it, (there goes that other job) family issues, etc. Everything was going farther south. Anyways August 18th, I went outside in complete tears, like a snot nosed toddler, saying God, I’m tired of running from you. Whatever it is you want, you can have it. I’m just completely tired. He told me if I would give him three months, He’d catch me up for the three years I lost. Anything talking about my faith was never in my plans for life. I wanted to be a freelance writer, a traveling photographer and just travel the world doing that. Life happens right (hmph). Well I said Lord I want to work and I know your conditions are better than mine but I can’t live here with my parents without a job, I won’t hear the end of it. So he gave me a dream a few nights later and I was with children, walking them from the cafeteria and I thought, Lord no! I have one, to have 15 to 20 at a time there is no way and my patience can deal but you know what Lord, if you say so, I’ll do it. I turned my application in after trying to figure out how to get all the necessary things for them to send me a hard copy to fill out. Being a sub-teacher is the absolute difference in dressing, I’m use to company colors, scrubs, and correctional officer uniforms. Not actually dressing up in slacks, mary janes, and gracious blouses. So I have been second handing; buying piece by piece clothing to at least be presentable, at hoping they would skip a day so I could have something to wear.
Well my mom calls me about going over my aunt to look at some clothes this lady had basically given to her because she had a shopping habit and was trying to de-clutter. My aunt cleans homes (her house is clean enough to lick the floor, spotless, the 20 second rule applies to her house) lol. So I was at the choir fellowship and had just promised my dear sis in Christ that I would come assist her in some of her business when that call was made. My mom brings some things home for me to see and as she shows me I’m thinking wait, this is not an older lady, these are some nice (tag still on most) clothes. My aunts text me and says come as soon as I get off work. Let me shorten this, I basically got a new wardrobe from somebody else’s shopping habit. I had to praise God while going through them. People don’t understand a few things about God! He supplies all, I mean all your needs. Even down to the brown boots I wanted! That money I don’t have ro spend can go else where. I got clothes for my niece as well because I know that it was not about me receiving only, my mom, my aunts all got out something. Lady J (my Pastor’s mother) prophecied during revival that wardrobes were about to change because careers, paths and purposes were changing. God’s word not only renews our hearts, minds and souls, our outer appearance starts to change as well. David couldn’t continue to look like a shepherd boy, Queen Esther a captive, Abraham couldn’t just be Abram, nor Moses being in the presence of God just be normal, He had to have the glory of God reflecting off Him! Even when it looks rough, the heat may turn up, the contractions may seem worst but baby! You are coming out as gold! You are birthing your destiny and you are to lay in green pastures and drink from calm waters. Keep pushing through the dark tunnels, go through the storms, Jesus is empowering you for Greater, this is just basic training!

MIRIAM