All the Single Ladies!

It’s August and I have yet to figure out why every year for the last few years around April to September why God always puts on my heart marriage. I have hints but I think I just started to accept it this year that He is preparing me for the position called Wife. Before I can get there I must go through training, training that the world does not offer. I didn’t come to go deep into the training but God gave me a word to share and that I should blog it. So the next two or three paragraphs will be what he gave to me to share with the dear ladies following me, Kingdom women!

“Marriages are my idea, them to stop putting time limits on my timing, my purpose, my plan. You say you have to have this and do that, but what I want is for you to listen and obey, heed to my word and my will. That is how you prepare for a mate, the world will have you missing out, I laugh at the plans of man; my way is perfect, my timing is perfect, my peace is perfect. stop fretting and being so busy Martha, you can’t hear what I am saying. You see why some of your plans have not become as they should because you need a covering, someone to envision with a husband, you cannot be with me alone, I never designed you for that. Two is better than one, stop whining over cold sheets, what your family is saying, your friends are saying. Because who I bring into your life, most of them will think you don’t deserve him, you don’t worry about their words but you hear and follow my instructions.

My beloved daughters, my Queens, more precious than rubies, who laugh at tomorrow, who have no fear, but fears the Lord, and she shall be praised.”

Look God got you better than you got yourself, continue in His paths and before you know it the man that is your husband will be before you! God bless!

God Hears You Just Fine, but are you listening.

I of course am up because I took a nap earlier today and yeah that was not on purpose. I’m cleaning and as I clean I think about everything. The last few months God has been dealing with me tough, training me, teaching me. With teaching I had to realize why I have two ears and one mouth.

I like alone time, I love and probably try to indulge in. I’m a mom, so if that means locking myself up in the bathroom just to get a little peace, I’ll do it. Lol.

With this alone time, as long as I can remember I’ve read countless words through many pages of many books. I’m a bookworm. As I have come to understand knowing God, my books pretain more useful knowledge. God’s Word along with being on fire with the Holy Spirit has started a flame a hunger and thirst for Him. An attentive ear has been turned to hear what the Holy Spirit is saying. Before I came to my church now I was not well hearsed on the things of the spirit, I knew angels and demons and about the works of the Holy Spirit but not in detail that I know now. I have recieved somewhat of a plathora of revelation from the Holy Spirit including knowing God’s voice.

Jesus is talking about John the baptist and in verse Matt 11:14 says ‘and if you are willing to recieve it, he who has ears to hear, let him hear!’ If you are willing to hear the truth of God by the Holy Spirit you will hear. Jesus in John 10:27, says ‘ My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.’
We can hear God clearly when we walk in obedience to His Word and Will. We belong to Him, He knows us by our fruit.

How do you know if you are hearing from God?

The voice never contradicts the Word of God. God is not telling you that someone else’s husband/wife is your husband/wife. He will not lead you astray, nor to commit a sin of any kind. That the flesh and or Satan.

The voice of God is gentle and stern, it is not harsh. I have heard my name called gently but sternly and it was to get my attention, to protect me.

His ways and will are higher than ours and He knows the plans He has for us. The more we yeild to the Word. Most of the times before I start my personal bible study or even get to church. I plead the blood over my mind, ears, my mouth and that I be enlightened by the Holy Spirit to God’s truth and I ask God what do I need to learn for that moment. I sit still, I sort out or get on the same frequency by praise and worship and focusing on Him. Meditating on His Goodness.

When yeilding becomes apart of that personal time with God and we shut up and listen. Then you and I can hear His voice in surety. He will direct and correct your path, we just have to be willing to get into that quiet time and be quiet. Lol. This has been most fulfilling in my relationship with Him, that’s a part of the intimacy. Listening.

Jesus and the Sound


“I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word;  that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me.  And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one:  I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me. “Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.  O righteous Father! The world has not known You, but I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me.  And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”
John 17:20-26 NKJV

For a few weeks now I have not been able to write this and it has been hard to put my thoughts in order that I understand it.

Then God revealed something to me as our minister of music spoke to us last Sunday . It was so profound and it clicked with me so well, He said, ‘Release the sound that God has given you, that only you can make.’ Then I got more revelation as God started to bring  back to memory some science lessons I had in grade school and a messages I watched by Jesse Duplantis.

Sound are vibrations that travel through the air or another medium and can be heard when they reach a person’s or animal’s ear. (Google definition)

The sound of Jesus is His teachings to us. Every time we repeat what Jesus said, we release His sound! It rings into eternity. Proverbs it says ,the power of Life and death is in the tongue, choose life.

The sound Jesus spoke in the above passage has been weighty on my heart, I read it and it resonates. Jesus prayed for you and me, that we would believe because of the disciples before us. I had to ask myself am I letting that sound ring clearly, is it hitting my life so it can travel from me to others. People say actions speak louder than words, that’s true because in James, it says do not be hearers only but doers also. Your actions make a tremendous sound throughout the earth, do not only pray for those after you make a sound for them. It should declare Jesus is the ruler and lover of your life and He reigns forever more and He is good all the time! Make a sound!

As a musician and singer I understand that my sound is different than any one no matter if I play the same song, it’ll ring with individuality.

February 1! Happy Birthday!

Today is such a special day for me because at 2:08pm 2009, on Super Bowl Sunday, I became a mother to a screaming baby boy via c-section! The details and my near death experience will be saved for another day. I was 17, surrounded by doctors, my mom his dad, tons of family waiting for us to come out and enjoy. Today my son is 7, oh where has the time gone! I can’t remember saying much but I remember my son’s nana, asking did I want anymore children, seeing I had just died on the table and I looked at her sure and confident and said yes at least 2. It wavers from time to time especially as I take in how expensive things get just with one.

God makes a way and having my son is teaching me so much about unconditional love, discipline, patience, being calm when you want to be highly upset and it gets me out because my son is a complete people person! He is very opposite of me, don’t get me wrong I love people but he seems to talk to any and everyone. We were in Wal-Mart looking for blankets and a lady walks by and stops and sees a cake in her buggy. He says ‘Happy Birthday and you look nice today.’ lol really Jaden! He and the woman had a nice conversation but it was her husband’s birthday and he told her to tell him ‘ Happy Birthday!’ She was smiling the whole time and said that it made her feel really well that a young man took notice and was so polite.  Children are surprising!

My son is rough and tough’em country, four-wheel riding boy! He likes fishing and every dirty thing a little boy could imagine. The thing he loves is going to church with me and he doesn’t ask a lot of questions but when he does, it is usually something you never thought about.

His new and most savoring thing is Lego’s, he loves building and painting and drawing. I read in a few Jewish parent subscriptions that I read is that you find out what your child is good at and you invest in that. So this year I am investing in an art teacher, a carpenter class, and a music class, those are his three interest that he loves more than anything. He watches youtube videos about building legos and if you get him some he takes them out the box and give him about twenty minutes and he can have them set up like the picture.

I learn a lot from watching him build, if I really want to see the end product I have to build toward it! Children really do change your life and I am most excited to celebrate seven years and many more with my handsome prince!


Be Creative

Gifts and Talents are to be utilized, not  hidden or buried. -from me.

Out of odds I have been trying to not be frustrated while looking for a better paying job, trying to pack, and get my son’s schooling attended too, and trying to balance personal studies and prayer life all back in the order they were before just three weeks ago. My mind has been wondering, not purposely but it does. Then I remembered what the Lord told me when I first start writing this blog: write anything and I will give what to say. So with life trying to slap me, my writing has actually been up. Only today I had a break down and I blame that on my impatient ways, that the Lord is ripping away at warp speed. Sometimes I get writers block, lately it has been life block, I’ve always been able to work and always climb with the income later but now it seems after actual injury, comes the insult. No one is hiring, returning calls or working with schedules, I am thankful for the part time I have now but in order to move out my parents house, pay for some plans, and go where I need to go, I need something steady. Praying and filling out applications, so today I cried, I felt like a failing parent, a failing Christian, a failure. I was frustrated because I thought I was moving in a direction I needed to go. Then after not knowing how exactly to pray, I begin to take in God. A peace so calming I actually got an idea to write out better experiences for my life. What do I mean? I mean when I have run out of room tears, prayers and my soul seems distraught, God gets my attention through my abilities. I grabbed my laptop and started to write a story, something to get those feelings of despair out. Creative writing is something we are taught in school. So in a story that is fictional, I wrote my dreams of doing interviews, having a successful God encouraging blog and vlog, with a character I am hoping to become like as my life is being transformed by Christ. I always believed Jesus was placed as a Carpenter’s son because God is the carpenter of our lives, building us up strong and sturdy, unique with His personal touch. He saw what He put His hands too was good and built to last. So get creative, if you are a blogger, writer like I am write that better future you want to see, God will be sure to guide your pen to see hope. If you paint, draw, build, sing, dance, drive, play a sport, etc., do it all unto the glory of God. Creativity leads to productivity, then leads to activity for your heart, mind and dreams. Don’t let that mind of yours be the devils playground, get on the swing and image you flying high into those buried dreams. Be creative you beautiful God-made Creation!

“I Will Clothe You”


“So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin;  and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.  Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
Matthew 6:28-30 NKJV

Bare with me as our internet for the desktop is getting settled. I have only done probably two posts from a phone.

So this is more of a testimony, that trully fits the scripture above. I just started working again from a very well paying job that I held up in for a few months and I just felt like God was pulling at my heart to leave especially after my accident in March. My brother offered me a job as a firewatch out in the western plains of Oklahoma. Did that go well, no. It actually stressed me out so much I stayed sick, swollen, and frustrated the whole time. Walking in total disarray trying to make more money to pay bills, take care of my son during the summer and for the school year. Having some time off (I may have mentioned some of this before) leaving that short term job, the money I had in my account went to a new phone (I hope they didn’t call for me to come to Texas), my car that was running hot to point I couldn’t drive it, (there goes that other job) family issues, etc. Everything was going farther south. Anyways August 18th, I went outside in complete tears, like a snot nosed toddler, saying God, I’m tired of running from you. Whatever it is you want, you can have it. I’m just completely tired. He told me if I would give him three months, He’d catch me up for the three years I lost. Anything talking about my faith was never in my plans for life. I wanted to be a freelance writer, a traveling photographer and just travel the world doing that. Life happens right (hmph). Well I said Lord I want to work and I know your conditions are better than mine but I can’t live here with my parents without a job, I won’t hear the end of it. So he gave me a dream a few nights later and I was with children, walking them from the cafeteria and I thought, Lord no! I have one, to have 15 to 20 at a time there is no way and my patience can deal but you know what Lord, if you say so, I’ll do it. I turned my application in after trying to figure out how to get all the necessary things for them to send me a hard copy to fill out. Being a sub-teacher is the absolute difference in dressing, I’m use to company colors, scrubs, and correctional officer uniforms. Not actually dressing up in slacks, mary janes, and gracious blouses. So I have been second handing; buying piece by piece clothing to at least be presentable, at hoping they would skip a day so I could have something to wear.
Well my mom calls me about going over my aunt to look at some clothes this lady had basically given to her because she had a shopping habit and was trying to de-clutter. My aunt cleans homes (her house is clean enough to lick the floor, spotless, the 20 second rule applies to her house) lol. So I was at the choir fellowship and had just promised my dear sis in Christ that I would come assist her in some of her business when that call was made. My mom brings some things home for me to see and as she shows me I’m thinking wait, this is not an older lady, these are some nice (tag still on most) clothes. My aunts text me and says come as soon as I get off work. Let me shorten this, I basically got a new wardrobe from somebody else’s shopping habit. I had to praise God while going through them. People don’t understand a few things about God! He supplies all, I mean all your needs. Even down to the brown boots I wanted! That money I don’t have ro spend can go else where. I got clothes for my niece as well because I know that it was not about me receiving only, my mom, my aunts all got out something. Lady J (my Pastor’s mother) prophecied during revival that wardrobes were about to change because careers, paths and purposes were changing. God’s word not only renews our hearts, minds and souls, our outer appearance starts to change as well. David couldn’t continue to look like a shepherd boy, Queen Esther a captive, Abraham couldn’t just be Abram, nor Moses being in the presence of God just be normal, He had to have the glory of God reflecting off Him! Even when it looks rough, the heat may turn up, the contractions may seem worst but baby! You are coming out as gold! You are birthing your destiny and you are to lay in green pastures and drink from calm waters. Keep pushing through the dark tunnels, go through the storms, Jesus is empowering you for Greater, this is just basic training!


I Surrender All?

This title came to me while discussing cleansing with a sis-in-Christ. While I was chatting with her the Holy Spirit gave me an answer but not only to a question that she had but a question I’d been asking for almost a week.

You see God has been really heart checking me about a lot, I personally don’t like dry seasons. Yes it’s a growth period but growing pains hurt. So within this time of growing I was stripped of some of my favorite shows no not Scandal or Empire, I personally don’t get those shows. I was also stripped of reliability on self, where I try to fix it myself but God is trying to get me to rely on Him completely! So I was reading through and it was like a scripture was highlighted in my heart as I read.

In Timothy 4:12-16,
Paul is telling Timothy a few things about how he should handle himself, the ministry that God has given him, and the people placed in his path. What stuck out to me was when Paul told Timothy to ‘give himself entirely over to them‘. I said Lord show me how to give myself entirely over to your path, like I need to be, nothing holding me back. Hey! Jesus said whatever you ask in my name it shall be given unto you.’So I asked, you see Psalm 91:12 says ‘Teach me to number my days, so that I may gain a heart of wisdom‘ I am tired of wasting time. I have been sleep, chasing the tailcoats of a world that will not turn and chase me. When I should be like the woman with the issue of blood, pressing toward Him just trying to touch the hem of His garment.

Surrendering is truly a daily washing, a ritual we must run too! I don’t always run to surrendering, sometimes I go kicking and screaming truly fighting my fleshly desires, I could be seen walking slowly because I don’t have the energy to go through another cleansing. The example I used with my sis, was a dirt covered child that thinks its okay to be dirty and will have you chasing him while he runs to and fro stark naked across the yard. If the child is like my son who hates to be dirty passed play time, that child will run to you because he knows the importance of being clean and will surrender to your arms and the water waiting in the bath.

Do I surrender all? Maybe I haven’t taken full on notice what I need to surrender to the Lord but I know the Holy Spirit will knock on that door in my head and heart soon. It will be in that moment that I have to choose to surrender or push back. ‘Obedience is better than sacrifice‘ is usually the first scripture I hear in my head or ‘pride comes before the fall‘. Then an image of Satan being thrown from heaven follows. Then I’m like okay, I remember and I surrender but I have to continue to surrender until it becomes natural not to want that thing, idea, habit, or whatever it is anymore! God will strengthen you, He is a Good Father or El Emunah (The Faithful God). He will never leave you or forsake you and His love makes that surrender so much easier!

Lord I surrender all! I surrender my will, way and thoughts but replace them Lord with yours. Days I don’t feel like reading my Bible I force myself to at least to read a few scriptures. I have a song that I listen to by Hillsong called ‘Love is War‘, that I play, I blast it. I sing with it, I praise with it because surrendering is cleansing me from the inside out, it’s letting God have his way in my life, giving my original purpose room to spread wings.


Pending or Prospering?

Pendingare you in position that you feel like you can go but the door still hasn’t opened? 

Prosperingmaybe you are a trailblazer and the doors won’t stop opening, nothing is holding you back!

Both positions are growing opportunities at there best. I know I have a lot I want to do but can’t seem to just focus on them because I have something already going, then there are other areas I’m flourishing in. Take a moment and reflect on your dreams and then what you have obligated yourself too. Most of my life I have been in a pending position with growth spurts, like the children of Israel going around the same mountain for 40 years.

We like to say ‘I can’t imagine that’, but most of go around in circles in certain areas in life until we humble our wills and ways to Jesus. Pray and ask God what is His plan for your life. Am I learning this? Yes at a very accurate speed, because what God has planned I don’t have a clue how He wants me to accomplish any of it without Him. Learning this has broken me, days I feel lost I know that I have not had any true time with the Lord. I get agitated, irritated, and frustrated and I have to take a step back and evaluated and ask myself, what do I need to ask Him about? When I decide to stop and ask the Lord for help, I have just answered the call to prosper! I get a nudge from the Holy Spirit when I am out of order and He reminds me of what I am missing out on. A prospering moment with the my Father.

2 Chronicles 16:9 puts it in this way, ‘For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him….’

This morning, the Spirit nudged me with the words, ‘Continue, Miriam.’

Pending is where God is trying to get our attention, to look up to the hills where our help comes from.

Psalm 119:105 ‘Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.’

I like what Paul tells Timothy in 1 Timothy 4:16 ‘Take heed to yourself and to the doctrine. Continue in them, for in doing this you will save both yourself and those who hear you.’

Don’t get frustrated! Pray to our faithful Father and your day will surely prosper!


Word Led Life- What’s it about?

One of my dear ladies brought to my attention that the blog may not be clear to some people. Thank God for what others can see that I can’t. As a writer, what’s in our hearts and heads and given to us may not always be clarified in a way everyone can understand. I understand that because sometimes I read things and have to re-read it at least four times, to get it.

What this page is about:

Simply to encourage you to live a life led by the Word of God. Given in example of personal experiences and how God is changing my life every second. I will soon be doing interviews so that you can experience not only my personal change and growth while being renewed daily but also others. It’s not the change but the struggles and the fight to get where we are going but we are to fight the good fight of faith; as well as be transformed, going from glory to glory and faith to faith.

God’s Word is true and with the Holy Spirit, revealing to us every word, it enhances our life. I like the way Smith Wigglesworth puts it. “We live on a human plane, a natural plane; but with the Holy Spirit we live above that plane in the supernatural things of God.”

John 1:1-5

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God.  All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.

The Word was in the beginning, with God and was God.

All things were made through Him and nothing was made without Him.

He is life and light of man and that light shines in the darkness!

If the Word (Jesus) does not lead our lives, we are lost in the darkness of the world.

I just want to share how Jesus (the Word) is leading my life and others!

With sincere love,


Thank You for reading and sharing and I hope you continue!

Step into the Light

‘If God can have His way today the ministry of someone will begin… It always begins when as soon as we yield.’ – Smith Wigglesworth

Well I was going through a power struggle this week and even now I feel as if I am at a standstill, but I have taken it as a time of learning who I really am in Christ. I was sitting and reading a book, I am trying to finish this book that must go in my collection, Smith Wigglesworth, ‘Greater Works.’ I closed my eyes to inhale some of the words I just got through reading and then I saw a light. I opened my eyes thinking, I must be tripping, what was in that cereal I ate (lol). I closed them again and I saw a light and the scripture that came to me was ‘I am the way, the truth and the light, no one can come to my Father except through me.’ In the vision I looked back and there was nothing behind me except a black mass and I said, so plainly, “Lord there is nothing back there for me is it?” I kept walking towards Him. Then the vision was over. I believe that was a victory of me never going back to my old way of life because I have come to a point where I know there is nothing for me in my old life anymore!

Many times in this walk with God I have been just like Hosea’s wife, Gomer. I have run from Him seeking my own pleasures, straddling the fence, holding hands with the devil and expecting Jesus to pay the rent.

That has been most of my life and every day I just say, ‘Jesus I choose you.’ No matter how tired I am, I chose Jesus. He is the life of me and the light of my life. I don’t have anything to look for back there in my old life. The craziest thing was a dream I had about when my family was really struggling and I could hear Satan say, this is going to be you, just like your family has always been. Poverty is what you live in and poverty is what you are. I woke up laughing and said to Him, you reached so far back, it’s unrealistic, those cars we had don’t even exist. That place we lived we can’t go back, you really tried hard didn’t you Satan and are you mad or nah?!!

My life is completely changed especially my spiritual life; it is light years ahead of what I was just a few months ago. All glory to God, He continues to light my path and I have never been at peace like this in my whole life. So I say to anybody let Jesus light your path, let His Word transform your mind, let Him crown you into your rightful position as a Believer in Him. You are royalty and worth dying for. It was beyond honorable and noble, it was POWERFUL!

Romans 13: 11-12

And do this, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep; for now, our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore, let us cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light.